Don't damage what is being Broken

I know it's the longest gap that I've ever taken to write up a blog. I hope you guys missed me. I honestly do not have a volume to talk about. All I know that One writes up the most beautiful thoughts when he talks his heart and speaks his mind. 

Life has been different for a while, things, friends, family, just like months and years aren't the same. Yes, I was busy fixing up my own world, Growing out of my shell. And trust me it sucks BIG time. It's not at all your comfort zone. It's not always desirable. I sometimes sit quietly and wonder 'What if this would happen?'. I am sure we all do at certain point in life. I am sure we tend to think! It's human nature. At the end, they say if it's meant to be, it will be. Cool, if that's the way of self inspiration.

We all try to save it up, to re-live, to make efforts, BUT how long is the question? I know I am talking vague to you. Read ahead, it will eventually make sense. Think about that person who meant so much to you be your closest pal, a neighbor next-door,  your gf/ bf, your pet or an office colleague. JUST think and if suddenly everything changed in 1 shot! why ? did you do things on purpose? what made you do it? Whose fault it was? I know most of them won't go back to the past. You shouldn't either. I am asking is YOU need to look at how your behaviour is changing. Why is it changing. If it's good say thanks and don't read ahead. If it's sad ask what have YOU done to create it at the first place. It's called self introspection. Being too harsh on others is less important. 

What is important is 'to know'. I heard this amazing quote FAIL - First Attempt In Learning. So did you FAIL today, day before or any day? I did. I FAILed a zillion times. We all did. The only good part that came in was not doing again. I know the past few months I am not the same. I also know I didn't have the courage to start up a blog last year. That was not even on-my-mind.

All I know is when it was tried and applied I felt good. I choose to leave a lot of things behind my back - be my laziness, be the less important people around and more importantly holding grudges. I LEFT IT! I know the only thought that mattered to me was 'Will it matter to me five minutes or five months down-the-line?' If it didn't then It's a straight path. If it does, 'Hmm... There is something to fix, Lets sort out.'

What's gone is gone, What lies ahead of us is our behaviour of past that can be improved for a better tomorrow. To not make the same "FAILs" again. Make a new one! Every time! Trust me you'll still be growing. There comes a point where you lose hope of getting something-to- do to so-much-to-do, of being so introvert to laughing my hearts off, from caring to least bothered person. Life changed for the good and people around me wondered what went wrong. I personally do believe I am too young to be giving my thoughts on high regards but I think we all see life's perspective from our own angle to say how we saw it. I believe at some point of time: what's broken cannot be fixed and what's fixed shouldn't be worried at all ! We get stagnant in the past, It's cool but if we rot in there, how are we supposed to grow? Your past surely defines you but your today and future are something worth working for! Surely some things need to fixed but not everything always. adieu :)

She is special for a lifetime !

Right before, an year back. Things were different. I remember 21st June, 2013. Yes, that day ! It was a friday ! It was raining quiet heavily. I was at home. No , I wasn't enjoying the rains. I was highly irritated with the annoying noise. It was "meow, meow, meow". I wondered what went wrong with the neighbor's cat. Is she okay ? Since 4 a.m! It could be the worst sleep.

To my surprise, when I got up in the morning with fighting sleep. The sound was still up. Again that annoying "meow, meow". I finally fought my patience to step out & see. I had a very annoying grin & saw a tiny lil kitten that was completely wet in heavy rains. The cat was in a condition where it wanted a shelter than a milk. I didn't realise. Like every other nerd, I step into my rainy gums, kept some milk. To my surprise the kitten left it & followed my foot steps. All wet & drained. Entering our house.  I held her, and realised "omg, she needs to be wiped". And with some "not so good discussions" with mom. Somewhere, I just wanted to give her warmth.

Wrapped in the warmth. I got her in. My sis was busy in her laptop. While I happily introducing her to this kitten. How can I ever forget the panic-stricken mode my sis was in! With lot of mutual understanding we requested to keep this kitten till the rains went off. But animals, are too cute to let go easily. So with lot of convincing, we decided to keep this kitten & take care.

It was a day of blessing ! For sure, nothing can replace the love non-verbally animals do. The next day she was alright. She was jumping on our legs infatuated by a moving object too quick. We all were compelled to wear a full length cloth to save our lives. One fine night, I realised this ought to have a name. She is too cute to be called just-a-cat or a stray ! So we named her "Mishi".

It's been an year exactly today. And what I learnt that cats have more understanding than human beings. You tell her not to bother, she will make a tiny face and wait in the corner. Even after giving food, she will wait outside till you finish your shower & follow henceforth. When you return home after a tiring day, she will stand before hand & wait & welcome you to come inside & not herself to go out. She will trust you the most than her other cat mates for the shelter that you gave her.

You give her 1 meal, she will keep licking you as there's nothing tasty. She will clean herself and make sure to clean you. She will get her toy and place it on your feet to say "please play with me", she will have all the daring to roar to her other cats only under your eyes. No, cats are not cunning. You give them love they will reciprocate. You give them hate & they will bite you the whole night. They're smart & too straight. They too need their space.

The best moment that me & my family enjoys is when she finds our feet for her most comfortable sleepy afternoons & nights. And right now, she is right next to mine. While I am typing her honors.

I love you Mishi very much. You've taught - the not-at-all-animal-lover (mom) to love you. You've taught "it feels lively to give a life". You've taught to restrict the play fight till play and not beyond. You've taught to give much more than recieving. 

So here I am back again...

So here I am back again, with my laptop, involved in my own world. Staring outside the window, blessed with rains, dark clouds and a perfect cup of tea. Well, that's what most of us, imagine our lives to be. I am simply clueless or jobless. Honestly, I am not here to crib my dilemma, but this is probably the phase that many of individual might have been through!

Getting back, I am still thinking on what topic should I write - Love? Philosophy? Fiction? Self-help? I would end up just typing something on my own & publish it like some foolish content? LOL ! Life is at this stage where I am in my own little world of fragrance, too lazy to step out in rains, too busy doing nothing, cuddling my cat in 1 side & dosing a heavy nap on the other.

Finding internships, to kick start my career as a copywriter somewhere, where all my knowledge would be in some productivity.  On the other side, my colleagues & classmates are happy finding their own or enjoying a 'Hawai' kinda vacation. I am simply B-O-R-E-D... It's said that life grows beyond your comfort zone & It seems I am the last one to get a hang of it. My observation on life says, it's out of the most unexpected situation, you face something worth it. From the most shocking perception, you see the reality.

Past six months have been well in 2014, But for me, it could be the super best if I make through something that I really wish for. At this point of time, I realise, being the best in whatever you're and you can, makes you a strong contender to survive in the world of big whales.

Just not sure where to land up, whom to look forward for, what to believe & simply what to say. At this point of time, when you simply have nothing to do. Trust me, more than the people around you, you feel so wasted. We all know that there's something BIG in mind, that is much more than WE 'planned' for. The ultimate test is to wait. Are we really patient enough to wait? Do we simply put a blind faith? Without working hard for it?

The truth of life is its too bitter to accept the future if it's not designed like we thought about it. The philosophical version would be simply take as it comes & go with the flow. I am wondering which great book would stack my shelf this month? ;)

A Lesson called Life . . .

The essence of life is too amazing. And with time I've realised :

The less people you chill with, the less bullshit you deal with.

You do good or bad , you will always be talked about.

Nothing in this world is as precious as much as what you think about yourself & not the vice-versa.

Man's ability to deal is measured on how he treats his woman & Woman's on what the society talks about.

When you can share laugh & crack rubbish. It is when the frienship develops not when you're "directed" to behave !

Learn to have patience with yourself, you need it much more to handle the jerks around you !

When someone can remember your little conversations. He genuinely listens & is interested.


People who believe that Karma is a bitch, already know their deeds.

When I shared #my sister #in crime :P

I Love AUDI !!!

Zindagi In Palon Ko Phirse Nahi Doharaegi!!!

Woh bhi kya din the yaar... NaTiOnAlS mein...

woh campus ki hawaein,

woh water field road ki masti,

woh lectures mein hasna ... woh linking road ki shopping, woh carter road pe dhamaal, woh stomach ka chinese, woh mamma mia ka pizza, woh 'turn on' karne wali mix juice, haaye woh jai sandwich!

woh journals k liye bhaagna aur ladko ko apne peeche bhagaana ;)

solid masti ki thi yaar!

woh Patil ka class se bahar nikalna, woh Divya mam ke accounts mein doubt, Rashmi mam ka random questions, aur Mehmood sir ke eng lectures :P hope u remember 'this way' of some eco teacher! lolz!!! :O

DAMN!

I sometimes remember totally random memories and smile to myself! =)

miss you Dash gang!

Maturing

Each day you get up with a purpose , a thing to do, a thing to be sad , a wish that could become true. A little thing not said, A little thing not told pinches you and leads you to grief... 
Don't look back as its passed away, you might hold something beneath... Life never makes you understand, what its purpose is like,it thus makes you to live behind that purpose and understand what better you have to do... 

Maturing does not come when you hold back a fight or a revenge,It comes when you let go of the past and move on with a smile ahead... Be a toughnut which is difficult to crack, A hardstone when things hold back,Life is difficult for those who complain, matured people lead ahead without a pain... Maturing comes when you understand  little things in life, not a bigger cash balance... So many fights, tiff, jealousy you hold within... 

Just sit back and ask yourself that what is the purpose for you to hide yourself from the world 'you' live in... When you were a kid, you wanted to have everything that you could,Now as you are grown up and think why I should ? The thing that comes up in everyone's life is Have I done enough ?If you get the answer YES then surely you haven't lived enough... 
Understand we all come with a Happy, Satisfied and Promising life, but why do we have those sorrows and happiness as a part of our life ? Things change, people change, time change,but remember my friends change can only happen when your inner child says within you to ACCEPT THE CHANGE ! Maturing is not a sign that you are progressing, It is however a sign that you have to understand more things ahead... 

All the Best- Dipti

Poster for our college fest

Hey my mad lil sissy !

Hey my mad lil sissy !

                     

Anyways just felt like writing few words about my Nerlindi.. I know you would rather say u can ‘say it too’ but sometimes what u feel is way beyond words and time… right from childhood TRUST me I thought “SUMA & Me FRIENDS? NO WAY, NEVER !!! :@” fighting to ending up being lovely sisters is what NOW I’ve realized!

Fighting in USA, stealing Barbie’s and her dresses.. Guess u remember? :x bullying our Rash Rani out of the room, playing Barbie Barbie, kitchen set, eating donuts, cooking, celebrating festivals, arguing, gossips etc [end of thinking capacity] sorry! :D … I realized that u deserve more than what I thought about u… I started loving u mahn! Hrrrr…. Impossible finally turned out to be possible! SUMA… you are the best of whatever I had, have and will always be… I don’t know what place do I stand in your heart, but for me you really do not fit in. . . HEY I mean u occupy a biiiiigggggggg space… damn so fat u r!!! :O

Didn’t find someone so polite, courteous, humble, sweet, cute, hot, kool, naughty & generous… [shouldn’t I stop lying?  :) ] lolz… each and every moment spend with you whether good or bad/ happy or sad… I have enjoyed as well as learnt & enjoyed with you! Thank you sooooooo much for always being there whenever I needed a shoulder to share & hear on! You deserve the best Sumi! :-* keep smiling… and let the world smile with you!

Remember whatever happens,  happens for the best . . . so you know why I am a part of your life? ;) obviously!!!! Because God wanted an unused brain like ‘u’ to be smart by being with a used brain like ‘me’!! It’s simple!! B-) %-)
Be Happy always!!
BIGGGGGGGG HUGGGGGGGG & loads of love  !!! :)

I love u till the end! =D) <3   - Jaanu

Photoshop Gone Easy !

ALWAYS REMEMBER . . .                                                                                              - Dipti Sudhakar, SYBMM

A couple of days back I was sitting and recalling the things when I did when I was a child ! Those things which were so called 'notorious' didn't sound like one to me ! They were all no big deal NOW. And when we used to get those punishments  like not coming on time (which is a trend in college) , Flaunting those long nails ( which is a beautiful thing NOW) and tying a pony tail with excess of oil (was so eww)  and nowadays even guys like to flaunt their hair and give a complex to women ! I was wondering all these years as a teenage and now as an adult What we all have been through in our college be it a personal, public, corporate or any life is much more than a restricted school life. We had been advised and lived under certain rules in our schools. And Now in college we really don't follow them ! That's why  being in school's rules and regulations,  we still enjoyed  things in a better way. Life in college has changed SO MUCH now.

Here, when you help someone , they take you for granted and when you don't help someone, you are considered to be mean. When you keep quiet you are very cunning and when you blab about something then you are the most talkative person and a headache to be with. We do come across what are we supposed to do . We are so stuck up in between this haywire that one might wonder OMG ! I am fed up. We are already so busy with the lives we are living with . Be it with the throwing projects, with the attendance on our head , participating for different college festivals, maybe with the internship or part time jobs  or just with nothing to do ! Life can be unfair at times and you end up thinking "School Days Were The Best Days Of Our Life" (surely most of them will agree ) Certain rules were implemented so that we know our limitations. Just like we are advised to write on a ruled page. Have you ever wondered why ? It's certainly because we all have to follow them . Similarly if we were given a plain page would we all know where we were  suppose to write and on which line. The Headline comes up and the script in between ? Definitely a NO !

I wish life could only be restricted till school and never out of it ! But indeed our school is the beginning for the rest of our life. And living a life in such a metropolitan, busy and full of chaos city, we realize that life is much broader than what we have learnt in books. It's no more a Fairy tale, It's a world of reality. We even forget to sit quietly and listen to our inner voice. We forget that we run behind those who don't even deserve us. Just try stopping in between and some won't even  care to come back and we mistake them as friends. And do not value those who wakes you up in the morning and FORCES you  to come to college. Who tells you not to eat so much as you may put on. The people whom we take for granted are always the people who love us  ! Our family and some of those true friends (which are rare these days). Somewhere down the line one day most of us will realize that the time we wasted on wrong people would have been more worthwhile if we spent them with our beloved. Never forget a little effort that someone took for you, just for being a part of your life. Or never forget those who stood there when you pretended to be 'okay', But still 'not okay' from inside. You may achieve a lot of fame, success and money in your life but one little message here is to convey that NEVER FORGET THOSE who were the reason behind it. Never think that you always stood alone and It's all because of you. Trust me you do need a moral support ! It's even  your friend that gave  that confidence in you just by congratulating you or patting you behind! Realize things before , rather than sitting and cribbing about them later ! 

Mumbai Meri Jaan. . .
                                   - Dipti Sudhakar

Aisa shehar, Jahan Kabhi kisi ka Khwab pura ho sakta hain ya pal pal mein choor,
Sadme se paagal ya Khushi se dur...

Hazaron ke beech me Tanhayi aur do dilon ke milne ki tayari...
Sadko par gadhe yahan logon se kam nahi par sarkar ki taakat mein bhi toh koi dumm nahi ...

Beet gaye zindagi ke kayi saal, ab sochte hain dye lagane se kya chamkaenge baal...
Hason, Khelon, Muskuraao yahaan aansuon ki koi kadar nahi...
Bheed me kho gaye he itne sab, ki yaahan ek dusre ki shakal dekhne takk ki fursat nahi...

Chahein ho hazaaro blasts ya  ho desh barbaad yahan ke log uthaenge apna sar aur jeeyenge isi tarah lagaatar...
Kaun kehta hain yahan paiso ki zarurat hain ?
Aath rupye ka vadapav aur paanch rupye ki cutting chai se log apna din guzaar lenge...
Aapke hath kuch aaya toh log aapse Pizza or Burger ki farmaaish maang lenge...

Mehnat na karoge toh is shahar mein tikk na paoge...
Yahan ki dheemi local mein toh apni halat tight karwa doge...

Yeh He Mumbai meri jaan...
Yahan datkar rahoge toh kehlaoge 'super star' mere kadardan !