I know it's the longest gap that I've ever taken to write up
a blog. I hope you guys missed me. I honestly do not have a volume to talk
about. All I know that One writes up the most beautiful thoughts when he talks
his heart and speaks his mind.
Life has been different for a while, things, friends, family,
just like months and years aren't the same. Yes, I was busy fixing up my own
world, Growing out of my shell. And trust me it sucks BIG time. It's not at all
your comfort zone. It's not always desirable. I sometimes sit quietly and
wonder 'What if this would happen?'. I am sure we all do at certain point in
life. I am sure we tend to think! It's human nature. At the end, they say if
it's meant to be, it will be. Cool, if that's the way of self inspiration.
We all try to save it up, to re-live, to make efforts, BUT
how long is the question? I know I am talking vague to you. Read ahead, it will
eventually make sense. Think about that person who meant so much to you be your
closest pal, a neighbor next-door, your
gf/ bf, your pet or an office colleague. JUST think and if suddenly everything
changed in 1 shot! why ? did you do things on purpose? what made you do it?
Whose fault it was? I know most of them won't go back to the past. You
shouldn't either. I am asking is YOU need to look at how your behaviour is changing.
Why is it changing. If it's good say thanks and don't read ahead. If it's sad
ask what have YOU done to create it at the first place. It's called self
introspection. Being too harsh on others is less important.
What is important is 'to know'. I heard this amazing quote
FAIL - First Attempt In Learning. So did you FAIL today, day before or any day?
I did. I FAILed a zillion times. We all did. The only good part that came in
was not doing again. I know the past few months I am not the same. I also know
I didn't have the courage to start up a blog last year. That was not even
on-my-mind.
All I know is when it was tried and applied I felt good. I
choose to leave a lot of things behind my back - be my laziness, be the less
important people around and more importantly holding grudges. I LEFT IT! I know
the only thought that mattered to me was 'Will it matter to me five minutes or
five months down-the-line?' If it didn't then It's a straight path. If it does,
'Hmm... There is something to fix, Lets sort out.'
What's gone is gone, What lies ahead of us is our behaviour
of past that can be improved for a better tomorrow. To not make the same
"FAILs" again. Make a new one! Every time! Trust me you'll still be
growing. There comes a point where you lose hope of getting something-to- do to
so-much-to-do, of being so introvert to laughing my hearts off, from caring to
least bothered person. Life changed for the good and people around me wondered
what went wrong. I personally do believe I am too young to be giving my
thoughts on high regards but I think we all see life's perspective from our own
angle to say how we saw it. I believe at some point of time: what's broken
cannot be fixed and what's fixed shouldn't be worried at all ! We get stagnant
in the past, It's cool but if we rot in there, how are we supposed to grow?
Your past surely defines you but your today and future are something worth
working for! Surely some things need to fixed but not everything always. adieu
:)
